Clearly Needing Advice

If someone you knew was doing something illegal that you feel endangered other people would you say something?

Normally you'd say yes, although some people belief it will work itself out, or it's not their place.

Now: What if it was someone you knew very well and it would effectively change everything forever? What if telling would end a lot of things that you cherish in your own life, relationships that are un-mendable after this?

I need a priest :( I'm conflicted. Part of me wonders if I'm doing this out of vengeance but I also know that I am really concerned.

Lord help me. Please.

English: Blegh.

Well reading my first assignments due for this next week was a little overwhelming. Not underwhelming or whelming. I am quite irritated that my responsive assignment is Christian political peace explaining why Clinton was good for the Christians but will deemed as the whipping boy of the Third Great Awakening.


There are so many things wrong with this paper that I might just blow a fuse thinking about it. However, the part that bothers me the most is I'm supposed to respond to other peoples view on this paper. As everyone in the world knows, I'm very stubborn in my opinion. So I must imply tact and sympathy so that I do not offend.

Blegh. Seriously. Blegh.

~Mindfully wounded~
Aprill

Ren Fest- Scarborough Fair!

I'm still intriqued greatly by the gem the fairy gave me. What's it mean, what's it for....am I marked now? Random thoughts. Weird dreams.

I got a henna tattoo on my hand yesterday that I'm in love with. I let the artist free hand his own design with my inspiration. It's pretty nifty. I tweeted about it. So it's on one of them from yesterday.

Off to shower and let my moms dogs out. Driving across town to do these things makes me a good daughter right?

Seriously frustrated.

I might lose my pell grant due to the school systems being unable to communicate. This is getting to be a little overwhelming. While I am trying not to stress out, the lingering fact that I might not be able to attend school is sitting there like a led weight while I hover over the ocean floor.


Lord help me.

Personal Trainer.

Blah, going in a few to meet with personal trainer. I'm going to get on track if it's the hardest thing I do. However, I know from the way I'm sleeping that somethings about to come up, somethings about to be Epiphanyzed. I think that's not a word, but whatever. I'm in a really weird state of mind right now. Anyway, I'll write more when I'm not worried about the gym :)

Yeah, by the way, I think I'm fatter than I am. When I look in the mirror I see a 300lbs girl. However, when i look again I see a tube of fat around my tummy. Revelations to fix my issue.

Kisses,
AYA

So yeah. I Should be...

Blogging about my weight loss on my weight loss journal, but the lack of actual readers will probably prevent that. However, on the weight loss front, I did manage somehow to lose a size without losing any weight /baffle/. I did sign up for a 4 month membership at my gym (FREE GUESTS, if you wanna come!). It starts May 1st, which of course I won't be back until the 3rd. I have a free appointment with the Personal Trainer at 1030am on the 4th. Seriously, Aprill needs to get on track.

I'm so sick of shopping and crying because those cute pants, or that cute shirt don't fit. Fashion eludes me. I'm down to black shirts and baggy pants. Ah, well it will all work out in good time. I did so many errands today, I did forget one, but my car will yell at me when it's more thirsty. I also spent 200 before 5pm, which is really really hard for me. The 9 dollars I spent on makeup seems frivolous, which is silly. I'm allowed to spend money on myself damn it. See, internal struggle over minor things for myself even. I did however find pants for the trip and two shirts(on clearance), which I'm not mad at myself over, because it'd be nice to have a pair of pants my thunder thighs haven't ruined.

You ever talk a lot without saying much? I just did :) You love me though!!


~Random Thoughts by AYA~

Real friends and Real Life.

I'm the kind of person that is always there for you, no how many times you screw me over, I still have this compassion for you. So am I surprised that only 3 people cared enough to check on me during my Louisiana trip? Not really, however, it does suck. Soon I'll be working and going to school and living my life for me, and not for anyone else. I may not answer your calls pleading for advice on situation that you already know how to resolve but want "my opinion" on. I realized on this trip a few more things about myself. I'm a people please, with a big mouth of course, but ultimately I want to please everyone around me. Coming back home, and realizing just how much I do, is hard on me, because now that there is a cycle there, I'm going to have to break it. School will come first over simple things like laundry and dishes. I'll probably end up hiring someone to clean up the house because I'll have no time.

Btw, Aprill+beer+shots+bunch of old guys= Aprill realizing how little she's done to accomplish things and be herself.